(Merleau-Ponty's way of writing is sometimes said to be hard to follow, as he could first describe a position he disagrees with - and then shifting to countering that position he had just described, and then going on trying to formulate his own view - all in a single long paragraph. I'm afraid I tend to do the same =) Maybe that is the way I think - instead of solitary monologue it is like having a constant conversation with different views.)