In five or ten years I will still be reading your blog and playing Unreal World, how could I forget one of the creators of this game I love? :) I'll still remember you don't worry, any time doors are always open in Portugal =)

Thank you for your kind reply and helpful insight as always. I love your blog. When I feel down sometimes I come and read through old posts I have not seen yet. From the thematic of depression, philosophy, Nature, creativity, music, videogames, inner search, friendship etc I find a lot of empathy :-) Above all you had the courage to live and build a life you dreamed with. I respect and admire that a lot, since I have not yet had the opportunity and guts to build that life closer to nature, myself and creativity (working on that). In truth I am still searching for what I dream about in life, I have no idea at the moment (besides my love for nature). I hope that till 34 I find my place in the world like you =) I imagine that it is not as easy as it sounds by just reading the good parts in your blog, I imagine you still have to struggle and work hard in your everyday life to find your way and happiness, but the feeling of fighting for what you love (that transpires in your posts) changes all the scenario and points in the right direction in life :)

I believe that in the following years I'll be able to jump to my dream place (nothing complex, just a beautiful forest close to water), just need to save some money and find a place close to a lake as beautiful as the one where you live (wonderful place!) :) Then I just need to build a boat and life will be perfect (rowing is the most relaxing thing in the world) =) I have built one some time ago, but it leaked a lot and rotted in winter, next time it will be waterproof =)

Just one question (if you don't feel comfortable to answer I understand, feel free): changing your style of life and moving closer to a more natural way of life, far from the "civilized" world, as greatly helped with your depression and happiness towards life? Or do you still struggle with it the same way? The feeling of isolation doesn't fuel your depression, or in the other hand calms it?