Maybe one of those small steps you have to take is to change the way you see your own life. Depression has this mean way of only making you see and remember the negative things in your life, instead of looking at all the good things and enjoying them. You could choose to look at a summer full of friends, fun, relaxation, self-therpay and work you got done, which would give you a good feeling about the summer you had. Instead you look at what you failed to do, which in turn gives you a bad feeling about the summer you had.

I'm not saying you shouldn't work on the way you plan your life, but sometimes it just helps to look at things differently. Maybe those logs aren't so important? Or it's just not yet the time to haul them. Or maybe you put it off, cause you don't really like the hauling, even if you need those logs.

I've been circling about the same problem for many years of my life. I can hardly ever appreciate what I did do, cause I just see what I failed to do. I keep looking at the problems instead of finding solutions. And I feel this is partly due to my mind working in "depression mode" and partly due to the way my parents look at their own life. I have this huge highway in my mind that's so easy to use but only leads into negative thinking. Instead I should try time and again to find those little pathways in my mind that lead to positive thinking. Eventually those pathways will get bigger and turn into a highway as well. But sometimes I'm just too tired to fight it and let it happen, which makes me feel bad about myself again.

I always feel depression is a vicious circle that's incredibly hard to get out of. And everytime you think you did it, it just lurks around the next corner again.