Thank you for sharing that Erkka. Speaking about personal feelings, mood and depression is not easy for the majority of people. It's not easy for me, I always tend to a neutral dialogue about myself, hiding my inner me from others. But the way you speak so openly about it, about yourself, I love that, and I think that is an unique thing that changes all about you: I never see a depressive Erkka, I see at all moments a courageous, strong man, a fighter that faces his problems openly, and is working towards solving them, building a great way of life, being a great example :) Whenever I read your blog I see a great example and it improves my mood a lot :) I know that you face depression and all kinds of problems in your everyday life, but the way you face them, and all your honesty and transparency talking about them, I think that is great, and can be a nice step towards solving and getting free from them, I admire that.

I don't have idea if I have depression or what kind of it, because that is just a word and I don't know what it really means. But I know that I face something with the shape of it at the moment. Reading you is always inspiring and positive :)

I also lived in countryside the majority of my life, but never had a place of my own. Only lived in a city recently for 3 years (at the moment not anymore), but never liked it there, too noisy, too artificial, too claustrophobic and unreal, not a place for me. At the moment I'm in a point of my life in which I have stopped on the road, watching the bifurcations, and don't know what route to follow. But living like you, in a place of my own on the country next to a river and closer to nature, certainly will be a happy route for me in the future and I can imagine myself that way. Time will tell :)

Sorry for the delay in answering you kind words. I have read your answer the day you posted it, but postponed answering, waiting for a better time, but the better time never came. So, sleepy and tired, I answer now - maybe there is never a better time than now, at all times in everything in life. Just wanted to say thank you, and keep writing :)