Cheers!

See, all the time I did my best to be patient with you, and to offer some support and guidance - because I happen to believe that people can and will change. And that the social interaction sometimes contributes towards the change. Also, to me it seems that changes don't always occur instantly, so patience is necessary. EDIT: So, if you now say that you've changed, it seems all natural for me to believe it.

That is one of the great problems with depression - first it lowers your inner energy level, and then it also affects the way you see things, sometimes making things seem "impossible", and often making things seem more negative than they are. (for example, I'm not sure but it somehow seems that you often assume that other people might have very negative attitude towards you, even when people are just expressing a very mild and very polite feedback about your behaviour - so many times I've seen you quickly burst with anger as if you were deeply insulted by the feedback. In my eyes that is just another of the symptoms, and a bit like the soul water leaking out a major hole in the bucket. I'mnot saying this to mock you, I'm just honestly describing the way I've thought of you and your behaviour.) . So, depression maintains itself, often the symptoms are hindering the recovery process. But at the same time it also means that things get easier if and when some holes heal themselves. Gradually there will be more inner energy, and recovery becomes easier and easier. Just keep going and seeking =)

Also, there is absolutely nothing wrong with leaving UrW forums or anything. My point was just that since you already had a habit of leaving and returning and constantly changing your alias, it leaves the others in uncertainty - what is left is just a friendly question "well, it remains to be seen if this is the time when he actually does what he says, or if this was just one more temporary outburst of drama and anger, after which he will come back with a new nickname." - and that is what I mean with 'emotionally unstable'. That is not to mock you, it is just a rather neutral description of your behaviour - often typical both for teenagers and for people having depression-like symptoms. A part of the stuff I decided to offer patience and guidance for.

And by 'spamming' I just meant some of those long rapid chains of questions often pretty much unrelated to the original post. But I do admit that maybe 'spam' was not a good choice of word, since 'spamming' carries a negative connotation with it. Maybe 'flooding' might have been a more neutral word =) So, to clarify this, I'd like to say that there never was anything wrong with those 'flooding' chains, and as I said - I never was really annoyed, just sometimes slightly tired, and very seldom slightly annoyed, but nothing so severe. I just wished that peaceful guidance will be slowly helping you to get more balanced.